The journey of life is from doubt to doubtlessness. How can you expect yourself to be without doubt when you are caught in the grip of the desiring mind? When doubtful thoughts come and go in your mind just witness them and don't give them much of your energy.
Usually you start your relationship with God by asking Him for what is dear to your heart, which is most natural. When you ask Him for what you think you need, and He does not answer you in the way you expect, you begin to harbour doubts. But a time has to come when you grow out of the need to have a relationship with God where you ask and He gives.
Just meditate for a while on your breath, the incoming and outgoing prana. As you become calm, experience the peace of your being. Experience from within what a Grace it is to have this body, this mind, and this breath that you are breathing. Feel that you are surrounded by infinite gifts all the time, coming from the Nature, from the Universe, from God.
As long as the purpose of your relationship with God is to have Him to fix your problems and satisfy your desires, there will be occasions when you will fall into the pits. First express your gratitude for all that He has already given you, take stock of His infinite Gifts, and then become happy for What He is to you.
Gradually you will see that you don't have to pray for the fulfillment of your desires, they will happen as fragrance happens to flowers. First love Him/Her and then All Is Yours, not in bits and pieces, but as a Whole.
Love and blessings,
Baba


